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I Don't Know

by Hudson Freeman

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    "I Don't Know" - the debut album from indie-folk artist Hudson Freeman.

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    The proceeds for this CD will go to Hudson's missions trip to South Africa this summer.

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1.
Oh Well 03:45
In the summer, it's too warm to ever think a single thought. I am bound by the sweat and the songs trapped in my head and I'm bound by the little things I'm not. Every bone inside my body screams in fear of the unknown and every atom sings out well oh well oh well oh well. I'm scared of trying cause I don't know. I'm scared of asking cause I don't know. Scared of admitting that I don't know. I'm scared of knowing what I don't know. I'm scared of something, well I don't know. Scared of the future cause I don't know. Scared of the future cause no one knows. I don't know. No, I don't know. I don't know. Well, no on knows.
2.
Maya 06:45
I’ve seen the sun go down as pretty as before, while every second since has been an utter bore. I am so unconcerned with my sappy statements since that night. I can hear your breath in my heaving chest. Well every coward counts all his moments left. I don’t know my mind. I don’t know the rest. Well, if you wonder how it feels when I flee, it’s another dance stumbling over plans. Maya, I..uh, I…uh. Maya, I…uh, I…uh. I…uh want, I…uh want, I…uh want. I wanna take your hand. I’ll try ya, try ya, try ya. Maya, I…uh, I…uh. I…uh want, I…uh want, I…uh want. I wanna take your hand and place it in mine. I’ll fumble with my words as you gather speed. I can see your eyes, maybe I’m seeing things. Somehow I’m unaware of how unaware you choose to be. And if you look too close, you’ll find there’s nothing there. Please don’t catch my eyes, please don’t catch me stare. Please don’t catch me stare. It’s hard to see the silver lining past the glare. And to realize that only every soul is scared. If you know now how it feels when I retreat, It is a wonder, babe, what you’d even say. Maybe you’ve been as apparent as can be and maybe I just can’t content myself to see That the distance between us lessens with each beat, but I keep muttering. As every melody comes swelling past the seats and all your fingers feel like simple, major keys all my confidence betrays the songs I sing cause I keep stumbling. Maya, love, I know I wander through the streets like a motive; I just circle and repeat. Well, if you wonder how it feels when I flee, now quit your wondering. Now, quit your wondering. No more wondering. Wondering. Wondering. Now quit your wondering. Your wondering. Your wondering.
3.
Aaghh!!! 03:46
I called it off, I threw my records away. I sold my coats, I’ll write it in my memoirs. I called my dad, its so painful anyway. I made the most, cause every time we scream its like.... Aghhh!! I’m the worst thing ever made. Aghh!!!!! I was made in a test tube. Aghh!! Born to remain dismayed. Aghh! I was made in the image of you. Pulled you aside, I told you all I think about. I took your time, I’m sorry, I apologize. You said, “don’t try, now, blameless anyway.” I don’t agree, but every time we dream its like... Aghh! Im the best thing ever made. Aghh!! I was made in the best mood. Aghh!!! Born to feel all the love gave. Aghh!!! I was made in the image of you. “what is gone can never be recovered that wonderful continent of film cameras and first loves photographs that would later have to be ripped up in a rage - answers dissolve into questions the wishy washy way adults have about them is the illusion of knowledge masking the wound where innocence was ripped out - a necessary surgery never fully recovered from” (from Kelly)
4.
Pacing the floors of my home, screaming at my guts to get a grip Waiting, I’ll just lie prone. Tell me if you know how to cope Just don’t be upset with me now. Don’t be upset with me now Don’t be upset with me now. Don’t be upset with me now Meeting my stomach for lunch at hours of the morn’ you shouldn’t touch And greeting the reasons I jump. Tell me what they want, tell me what what they want Don’t be upset with me now. Don’t be upset with me now Don’t be upset with me now. Don’t be upset with me now Waiting for all this end. And I’m hoping my stomach stops bending Is it fate for my hair just to thin? I can feel my scalp slipping away Waiting for you to give in. And I’m hoping my chest stops collapsing Is it fate for my life just to end? I can feel myself slipping away But don’t be upset with me now. Don’t be upset with me now Don’t be upset with me now. Don’t be upset with me now
5.
In Your Hair 04:35
Something's gotta give inside your heart I've been screaming in the fridge for weeks Parking in garages, crying soft We are sculptures in the streets The killers with their coats and their teeth and their arms They'll never keep me up at night Cause I keep dreaming. I keep dreaming about this With the weight of the world in your hair, in your hair The weight of the world, tangled up in your hair And I'm sorry, I'll try to be there, to be there With the weight of the world in your hair, in your hair Something kinda small is stuck in my throat I've been choking on my thoughts for days Keep me in your prayers and keep me in your notes Coughing seven hours straight The killers with their coats and their teeth and their arms They'll never keep me up at night Cause I keep dreaming. I keep dreaming about this I keep dreaming. I keep dreaming about... The weight of the world in your hair, in your hair The weight of the world, tangled up in your hair And I'm sorry, I'll try to be there, to be there With the weight of the world in your hair, in your hair
6.
To Do 02:50
You may as well settle down, among those lovely clouds To remember you is hard to do, when I'm gone I'm sworn to this life I lead, and I don't think I can leave To remember you is hard to do, when I'm lost I'm not the best at names. I can't put them to their face But I'll try to learn, and I'll try to learn again
7.
Meet me soon by your door.I'll be here, waiting I don't know where I've been. Lost a while, in cowardice Now, ease my sway. Fill the time between the wants and worries I don't care where you live. It's always been a hop and skip Well, you stole, like a thief, my whole mind from its peace I can't think about, think about anything else I saw you smile across the bay Your teeth were clinched behind your lips And every word I'd thought you'd say, just spread right out like fallen limbs Well, you stole, like a thief, my whole mind from its peace I can't think about, think about anything else And I pine for the day when I'll realize what you meant I can't dream about, dream about anything else I can taste every pause and I'm not sure what's real. Cause it seems to me dear, all this time never heals Well, I’ll wait for the moment. Your hips start to sway They move as my mind does, ceasing the chase (I'll wait for the day) When I’ll hold you Maybe I'll hold you Darling, I'll hold you Honey, I'll hold you Well, you stole, like a thief, my whole mind from its peace I can't think about, think about anything else And I pine for the day when I'll realize what you meant I can't dream about, dream about anything else
8.
Black Hole 03:10
I’m gonna pull you in and leave you out I’m gonna reappear and not explain I’m gonna fall apart and settle down I’m gonna be the same and fizzle out I’m a black hole I’m a black hole I’m a black hole I’m gonna write you songs I never sing I’m gonna take your tears and give em back I’m gonna kiss your cheeks and run away I’m gonna start a fire I’ll say you made I’m a black hole I’m a black hole I’m a black hole
9.
Summers close, don’t you see? Why don’t we wait for the end of this madness to think? I’ve been circling late But I’ll come pick you up and you take you back If you drive off the road If you drive off the road Someone would find you and notify me But I wouldn’t know till you were fast asleep If you drive off the road If you drive off the road There won’t be gardens and parks There won’t be movies and talks There won’t be coffee to drink And loose opinions to hold If you If you If you If you I don’t mind driving for miles and miles And laughing to not go insane from the sadness And letting the lumps in our throats get unraveled And getting all choked up when nothing resolves And I wish there were answers to why we’re alone And I wish we had columns to hold up our chests And I wish it we had answers I’d like some myself but please don’t scream at me friend, at least till we’re parked Please don’t drive off the road Please don’t drive off the road
10.
To Be 02:52
Slow down your mind Slow down your mind Wherever we go, we'll know what we know Don't our brains slip past their time Slow down your mouth Slow down your mouth All of our words, filter and merge Swinging and falling through the sound And we try to do what we can And we say about anything To make it what it wasn't mean to be Say what you mean Say what you mean I know who you are What you keep in your drawers Don't let it linger any longer And we try to do what we can And we say about anything To make it what it wasn't mean to be
11.
(A Scar) 02:31
I don't wanna be a scar I cannot be a scar I don't wanna be your scar
12.
Pretty Sure 03:50
And oh your words are much to sweet For me to cycle on repeat Well, I'm... Well I'm... pretty sure I'm... Well I'm... pretty sure And all the songs I ever wrote Are random words I gave some notes Well, I'm... Well I'm... pretty sure I'm... Well I'm... pretty sure I don't know No I don't know I don't know I still don't know It seems I've stumbled on your cheeks Your face more real than certainty So I'm... yes I'm... pretty sure And I'm, well I'm pretty sure

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"I Don't Know" is the debut album from indie-folk artist - Hudson Freeman.

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released May 17, 2019

Produced, Mixed, & Mastered by: Ephraim McFarland
All songs written by: Hudson Freeman
All songs arranged by: The Boys
Artwork by Samuel Nye

Co-Produced by: Drew Hendrickson & Hudson Freeman

Backing Vocals by: Ephraim McFarland, Ellie Schmidly, & Jenna Bulger

Electric Guitars by: Joshua Cheezum & Josiah Vanderburg

Strings by: Luke Thomas, Matthew Pavon, & Alexa Gambino

Saxophones by: John Willis

Horns by: Drew Hendrickson & Ephraim McFarland

Drums by: Drew Hendrickson & Luke Ford

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Hudson Freeman Springfield, Missouri

Hudson Freeman is an indie-rock band from Springfield, Missouri. With many of his formative years spent in Swaziland, Africa - his time spent abroad has given him a unique perspective that's reflected upon often via his eclectic folk-rock project. As a dexterous lyricist, and sensitive, yet compelling performer, Hudson Freeman seeks to write catchy songs with meaning and emotion to follow suit. ... more

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